"Cold November" written by Devin Gackle, November 2010

Yeah, I know, it's not November anymore. I would have liked to do this one at the end of November, especially since this is one of those songs that you write about one thing, but then later also fit in another situation. But I didn't get around to it. So instead I'm doing it before the year is over.

I wrote this my senior year of high school, and it sort of sums up some change in perspective I had at that time. The 'cold' that I'm referring to is metaphorical, if you haven't guessed.

There are things in life you hold on to, sometimes no matter what. You just don't let go. It's not a happy song--in fact, it's cold. (When I performed this song live once, an audience member came up to me afterward and told me they loved the song because they had felt the cold of the song).

There are things you leave unsaid, whether purposefully or not. And it's hard to let go, especially if you blame yourself for things. It's a part of growing up; it's a part of life. The past is the past is the past.

Really, the cold could mean something different to each person. So this is for whatever you want it to be, and I'll leave it at that.

Lyrics:

The glow in your eyes is all I can remember

I've been waiting a long time, but it's almost December

Somebody take my hand, save me before it's too late

I don't understand, please don't let me suffer this fate

I never thought I'd lose control like this

It's starting to rain, and the fire's burning out

I should've known this wouldn't last forever

I've gotten used to the pain, but I'm tired of bleeding out

Help me let go of this cold November

I'm walking the streets alone and I

Can't seem to figure out what's going through my mind

Somebody lead the way 'cause I can't remember when

I could face the day, but I'm more confused than I've ever been

I never thought I'd question myself like this

It's starting to rain, and the fire's burning out

I should've known this wouldn't last forever

I've gotten used to the pain, but I'm tired of bleeding out

Help me let go of this cold November

And wash away everything I couldn't say

I know there's only myself to blame

The glow in your eyes is all I can remember

I've been waiting a long time but it's almost December

It's starting to rain, and the fire's dying down

I should've known this wouldn't last forever

I've gotten used to the pain, but I'm tired of bleeding out

Help me let go of this cold November

Help me let go of this cold November